We've finally made it!
Kara
and I have been praying about being missionaries since 2010. Kara and I got
married in 2012 and tried to go to Malawi as missionaries, but things did not
work out. However, our desire to be missionaries only grew stronger. We shared
this with our friends and family and many asked, why aren't we just doing it?
The answer to that is complicated. Mission isn't always about you. I wanted to
be a missionary; I wanted to change the world; I wanted to do awesome things.
Did you notice how may "I"s there were in that stream of motivations?
Although I had a deeply held conviction that I was supposed to be in the
mission field, things did not work out... probably because I was still being
formed. I truly believe that this is a matter of God's timing. But we have a
God who is persistent... in our prayers we were in a state of agony many times,
stuck between the desire to go and things not working out. But we didn’t give
up hope, we just begged God all the more.
Convent courtyard. Just in time for morning prayer.
The
past two and a half years have been a cleansing experience. Our motivations
became purified every time our plans didn’t come to fruition. The humility of
telling friends and family that we still were not going was an important part
of our growth. But we are here now; and we are here because God has been
persistent in letting us know that He wants us here and we are responding to
something outside ourselves.
Sunrise over Salvador: A veiw from our temproary bedroom in the convent.
I see similarities in other areas of my life. I tend to be a reactionary person - jumping on things because they are good opportunities... I am very guilty of that. But what is important in the long run is doing things out of conviction and not necessarily out of opportunity. Sometimes the right thing to do is not the most convenient or opportune thing. Also, God has His own time-frame that we don’t always understand. As Christians, we need to find that balance between action and enthusiasm and thoughtful prayer and consideration. But God is persistent in loving us and showing us where we need to go and when we need to do it.
A view from Mary Magdaline House in the favela.
This week, pray about something in your life that God has been persistently pursuing you about. Take it to prayer, give the timing over to Him, and see what wonderful things He has in store for you when you follow His timing.
“Despite
the difficulties, be courageous and joyful bearers of the message of salvation”
– Pope Francis
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